Easy

You think it is easy

Being alone

Without a partner

To touch

To talk with 

Be near

You think choosing to walk away is easy

It's not

It never is

Not for me

I do want someone

To touch

To talk with

To just hold

Someone that I makes me stare in amazement 

Every time they walk in a room

But at what price would I pay

If I do not feel that

That "thing" inside

That magic

Then how long do I stay

What if the other person feels "it"

Staying

I'm neither true to myself

Nor them

So I leave

Because I cannot keep breaking their heart

I leave

But they want me back

I return

I try

I leave 

We do it again

And again

Until when

When I've worn them down so much

They stop believing in love

I won't

Not anymore

I've done that in the past

But not again

So I leave

And I hurt them for a while

And I hurt myself 

For a lifetime 

©johnfklee